So, as you can tell I haven’t updated the site in a while, which makes me sad. I get so busy sometimes and I feel like I never have anything interesting enough to say.
Honestly, I’m feeling a little lost. What I wanted to do with my life last year is vastly different from what I’m feeling this year, and this year it’s even changed already. I feel like I’ll never find the thing for me. I have too may interests, too many ideas. I hate the thought of being tied down to one job, one career. It’s taken me so long to get through college because part way through my program and I get bored. It’s no longer fun, and new and exciting for me. I can’t stand being stuck doing something that I don’t want to do.
Then, I hear the “that’s how it is.” Or, “get used to it.” Or, my favorite, “suck it up.”
No. Fuck no. I will not resign myself to live a life that is anything less than amazing. I refuse to be another cog in the machine that society has made us out to be.
I don’t want to just survive during this time I have here on Earth, I want to thrive, and be happy. If that means struggling a little bit financially while I get things in order, then so be it. I refuse to settle. So, I guess what’s what I’m doing with my life.
Destroying the idea that the patriarchy has set in front of me to make do with, and instead, do away with it.